So not sure if I have ever told any of you about this before...

So I like to write. I guess that is pretty obvious now since I have two blogs :)

But ever since I was little I have been coming up with these stories in my head, and about 5 years ago I started to write them down. Ever since then I have been fiddling with them. Some have become kind of interesting, some have gotten deleted and started over again, and some were just plain stupid.

I have been working on 3 stories a lot since I have been here. For the most part I think they are ok, but unlike other creative outlets I am interested in, I have a HUGE fear of showing anybody my writing. Only one person has ever read one of my stories and that was my mom. She really liked it, but she's my mom - I have a feeling she will like anything I do.

So obviously if I ever do finish these books, I am going to have to get past this fear, especially if I want to get them published one day.

Do any of you have suggestions on how I can get past this hurdle?

I am just so scarred that everyone will think they are horrible. They will never look at me the same, because I made them read something incredibly stupid.

I know I am worrying too much about it, but to me it is so different then my paintings or photographs being critiqued. My writing is just so personal to me, because it is like I have lived these stories for years as I have thought through each part.

Being published is definitely a goal I want to achieve one day.

So I am going to go out on a limb here, if any of you are interested in reading a rough draft of one of my stories I think I am ready to hear what you think.

But please o please be honest with me.

I dont want to be like one of those horrid singers that try out for American Idol, and fully believe they are THE BEST singer ever.

I guess the only thing I would ask is if you would tell me the truth but nicely. Ha, if that's even possible.

Oh and if you know more about writing, like how things flow, where the story should go. I would also love to know those kind of things. Oh and me & Grammar never got along very well, so you will probably see a lot of those kinds of mistakes :)

Ok before I start spilling out all the things I know I did wrong, just let me know if you would like a copy by leaving me a comment or e-mailing me at emilinered@gmail.com

Love you all so much, and me even telling you this proves that big time :)

Hope you have a wonderful week!

And Finally the Sun Shined.......

So you wanna know something funny?

I keep writing posts in this blog, but then I realize everybody should hear it so then I transfer it to my other blog.

Ha... So why was the reason of having this 2nd blog again?

Oh yeah, so I can feel free to write mean-less, topic-less post just like this.

Yep.... feels nice.

So it has been a interesting road this past two weeks for me. Lots of confusion, frustration, and a surprise ending of perfect harmony. But today I find myself back in normal routine. Making Cappuccinos, warming up tart pastries in the toaster oven, and doing the dishes. It is nice to be in a routine again. It has been a while for me, and for a girl who likes to have freedom to do what I want - I have missed my routine greatly. We have not had too many customers so far, so I have a lot of time during the day to read and update my blog (Exhibit A). It has been nice, taking time to get to know the two girls I work with better. They both are so sweet, but completely different. Hmm.... how would I describe them? One always has the perfect outfit on, everything goes together. She just exudes grace. The other is more Indie-rock. If that makes since. Like she still wears all the arm bands from past concerts, very relaxed, and knows pretty much any Indie band out there. They both are such hard workers, and can't wait to see the shop really up and running.

I love waking up knowing I am doing what I always wanted to do. It's a pretty grand feeling that I hope everyone feels sometime in there life.

So I know this might be kind of random or weird but did you ever have a thought of what you would be doing when you were older? Is it completely different, kind of the same or exactly what you thought? Let me know! I wanna hear your thoughts on this one....